Initially, I wanted to wait till it strikes midnight so my entries
won't be 3 entries per day but I can't help it but to do another one now.
And tomorrow, will be able to post another entry! Haha (:
I've been spending my day just doing the exact same thing like
I've always been doing. Not so great well maybe, nothing great about
my birthday this year. Somehow, I felt very disheartened because when
the clock stroke midnight today, I received tons of wishes and not long before
that, my mother actually raised her voice at me. I mean, it's my birthday and
I got this? I receive many calls for celebrations but who declined all invitations
for me? Yes, the person who showered me with lots of love, my Mother.
How could I ever thank her for all that.
I was pissed. I was upset. I was angry.
WAS, what to do. She is still the most important person in my life.
And there's nothing that I should do to hurt me, even though she hurt
me like millions of times without realising it. Awesome.
I've told Nadiah & Maris about my feelings towards Arif, now.
No worries, nothing good nor bad is going to happen but, what I've just
told them really really made me realised that I've been neglecting
my studies. I'm starting to sound like Arif himself, talking about studies first,
relationship last & friendship is the most important thing. Now, I agreed to
those terms. Haha, it took me THAT long to finally realised.
So Miss Lee, I've taken your words to a very deep consideration.
I've seen what I've been wasting & neglecting. I really do wanna get to
4N2, 5N2 & then to JC. As you've told me, it's not impossible but I've got to
work my ass off this time around. Well, push me, I wanna go for it.
Counted my Common Test marks & I'm sad.
I can't believe that I could make it to sec 5 with just 15 points.
My target & my used to be standard: 11 points. Seriously, no joke.
Go on and say 'irah yaya papaya' .
But seriously, I wanna do well not just because of my future & what
people see me as. As for me, I love the feeling to be on top of others.
I love the feeling of satisfaction as I've done well. You know, it feels awesome.
Getting a just pass or borderline passes sucks. I'm trying to motivate &
promote myself to higher levels & have better expectations.
I just hope, I won't just say all these & won't do them.
C'mon push me; push myself.
Side tracks: I need to trim my hair.
Good news.
I've been selected to go for the Music Exchange with Carine High School,
Australia Perth this December 02-06. Told my mother about it and yes,
she allow me to go but with a condition; start to do my prayers.
So, there are so many things to work on, from studies & CCA.
With all this happening around me, all I have to do is to strive for
perfection. Okay, I sounded too arrogant or whatever piece of shit.
All I know, I mean what I say.
Friends stay friends, always be a part of me. <3
all changes, from you.
Sunday, August 31, 2008
15, felt like im just 5
HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY
TO iRAHH SHECKLER
& many thanks to;
Nadiah; who was on the phone & sang me Birthday Song!
Intan; who wished me on the 30th & 31st!
Maris; the bitch who wished me thru SMS & MSN!
Arif; the love who wished me thru SMS! <3
Nabil; who wished me thru MSN!
Afee; who texted me! (:
Luthfi; who sms-ed me 15 ' Happy Birthday! '
QRAISHA GF ATYQA LUQMAN ADILLA XINLING SAKINAH
CAROLINE JIE SHI SHIRLY MY SISTER MY BROTHER
MY MOTHER DEWI ARIO FAA HARITH JORDON ANONYMOUS
& moreeee (:
Thanks friends! As the clock stroke 12 midnight
& even few minute before that, I've received your text messages
& MSN wishes which lags my lappy.
I was over the moon when I received all the
text messages & MSN wishes.
Even from some people, I didn't know that you guys
remembered or even bother to wish me.
Thanks friends, school mate & lovelies! (:
Not long after that, I got to offline cause I've been online since
afternoon. Mother was all worked up & hecked, I argued with her &
sister yesterday night. A 'great' way to celebrate my birthday yeah?
' YOU'RE NOT GOING ANYWHERE TMR '
Might as well I don't want my birthday to come.
Might as well it don't come true. whatever.
What happened to all those;
' moms showers you with love unconditionally?'
You think? It's hard for me to believe that cause I wasn't prove.
Some said; ' Friends won't be forever. Mom's will '
But who have been making me cry & who have been putting a
smile on my face? Not mommy, but friends.
I know I'm evil to say such things but seriously,
I am not gonna tolerate this any longer.
boo. I don't care!
Meeting Arif real soon (:
JUST ONCE MORE
Saturday, August 30, 2008
Okay, ask me now people.
WHERE THE HECK HAVE MY EYES GONE TO?
Came to school few minutes earlier than
The dance was awesome as many
Okay, let's see.
Thursday was double Happiness.
Friday wasn't that bad afterall.
Friday morning.
I can't drag myself out of bed.
Eventually, I got up as I thought of my
dear friends, teachers & celebrations.
AING. what the hell.
Came to school few minutes earlier than
usual. Surprised that I was early.
Got to the parade square & the first thing
in the morning was to punk'd Nabil.
I told him I forgot to bring my
Samba costume & it's pretty convincing cause
I only have my sling bag with me.
He even asked me to go home on
that spot. Very panicked. HAHA!
takot joget sorang kepe bang?
Had the walk-a-thon & walked
with different kinds of people.
Sms-ed bitch all the way till we finished
our 2 rounds of the bloody big field
opposite side of school. seesh!
Got back to class & received my
results. Not satisfied though I did pretty well.
9Th in class is sucha pain in my ass okay.
Was pretty upset cause, I know I'm capable
of doing better. Haiz.
Had a light breakfast & headed to
change into the costume & make up.
I looked fat & disgusting okaaaaaay.
Won't elaborate any further. (:
The dance was awesome as many
people feed back to me. I look pretty as many
Nevermind.
Received the Prize for the competition &
heck, I was happy & proud of the Performing Arts.
Okay, had lunch & went for band celebration.
Chill in the band room & headed home with CAROLINE!
Got home, washed up & changed & met her again.
Headed to the Library & had band meeting at Civic Garden.
After meeting, had dinner with Caroline & Joyce
at Mac Donalds (: Satisfied my craving for Bubble Tea.
Got home & out again with family.
Car broke down half way thru our destination.
Waited for the tow truck like f long.
Taxi to destination, had later dinner & taxi home again.
During my late dinner, I received 2 text messages.
from Intan & Dani boy wishing my Happy 15th Birthday.
I was indeed shocked. haha, funny.
Like hello? I turn fifteen tmr. =___=
Next morning, received tons of text messages.
One of them is from Darian, also wishing me Happy 15th.
One of them is from Darian, also wishing me Happy 15th.
hahahaha. cute friends, but sorry, it's tomorrow darlings.
CHAMPION.
Thursday, August 28, 2008
CONGRATULATIONS TO WOODGROVE! (:
As you can see, I'm over the moon now.
Clarinet Esemble, Percussion Esemble & CO string section
went for the 2Nd N7Cluster Competition.
Secondary School Esemble Cetogary.
- WGS Clarinet Esemble
- Si Ling Wood Wind Esemble
- WGS CO String Section &
- WGS Percussion Esemble
How greeeeeeeeat.
It's WGS WGS WGS!
Percussion got third.
CO got second &&!!!!
CLARINET SECTION IS THE CHAMPION! ((:
Like omggggggggggggggggggggg.
Over the moon.
I was smiling ear to ear on stage before & after receiving the prize.
Hang around and cheers & hugs & tears and etc.
Walked to Civic with band members & went separate ways
as I met Arif & walked home from there (:
Double Happiness.
WINNER TAKES IT ALL.
and it flows.
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
I never wanted to cry infront of my friends & teachers.
I've always held back my tears when they are around me.
But today, I can't hold back no more. I let it flow out.
I cried a river for you people. How does that feel?
I tried to talk & organise the steps for the Samba Dance
but none of you wanted to listen. It hurts okay.
I've sacrifice ALL my sectionals time for Samba, so that
we all could dance properly & don't get kick out of the
performance. But you guys didn't even think about it.
I cried & there goes everybody asking what happened.
Look what you've done & you'll know the reason.
It's pretty upsetting.
And momma, I wasn't lying to you.
I wasn't staying back in school till late hours
to hang around with my friends, doing nothing.
I told you this.
First, I have to stay back for Batik Painting lesson.
Secondly, I have to stay back for the rehearsal
for Teachers' day concert on FRIDAY.
Steps changed & only left today for me cause
tmr, I'm going for the Competition from 12.15pm to 9.30pm.
Thirdly, yes, the Competition. I'm stressed out.
Not much practice for myself thanks to Samba.
Fourth, I HAVE to submit my art work die die, on FRIDAY.
I'm stressed out with the things listed above.
Plus, the missing Cell phone in class case.
And the fact that my mother don't have trust in me already.
I cried in the Music room,
where my section members were practising.
Talked awhile with Caroline
& off to meet Miss Lee to talk about this.
Pressure, stress, fatigue,
physically & mentally exhausted.
I need a break. This time, seriously, a break.
And thanks though to all the concerns.
The girls, boys, Miss lee, Afee and allllll.
I'm sorry for the break down & such.
Competition tomorrow.
good Luck to all participants & my dearest Section,
all the best, I love you guys.
Good Bye
Labels: enough is enough
Myspace is the only thing, that you ever show.
Tuesday, August 26, 2008
I was busy-ing with Myspace.
I have the urge to start one but something just stop
me from create. But now, after seeing RYAN SHECKLER'S
MYSPACE, I have no reason not to have an account.
So yes, also out of curiosity,
I now have an account for Myspace.
No friends yet? hahah. shut up.
Oh yeah, I was all busy with Myspace that
I've totally forgotten about Blogger & Friendster.
Had this long talk with Miss Lee.
From; In school to in the bus to half way reaching ITE Macpherson.
Cool or what? It's long but great advices. (:
Turning 15 this Sunday.
Like whaaaaaaaaat? I heard you guys saying something.
Louder please! Oh no, gotta do better than that!
hahah. Whaaaaaaaaat did you say? POOL? uh huh.
Pool.
I have no idea how to play pool.
But with that IC in hands real soon,
I need some coaching in it alright?
ITE programme today was really good.
I enjoyed everything but not the bus ride.
The bus makes me giddy & really sick to the extent
that I really wanna get out of the bus on the spot.
Okay, fake. heh (:
No but really, I can't stand it.
It stinks, the Air-Conditioner stinks.
Al and Rafi singing all the way & others screaming.
How can I be peaceful? That's when my headache
comes. Tsk tsk.
Slept, Nabil's Shoulder. (:
Doesn't simmer down the headache though.
Al just can't stop singing yeah?
haha (:
Last Programme tomorrow,
SEEMS TOO FAST! I want more! haha.
`Oh well, some girls are just being vain.
Didn't get to perform with my section today.
It was the most heartbreaking situation whereby I really
have to sacrifies. I have to follow the school to the ITE Programme
though I've planned to come late & only perform for Assembly.
Some came back telling me how poor they have done.
I feel so helpless. Nevertheless, I gave them few words of encouragements
& yes, I think they are all fine even if we don't make it.
They are fine, actually.
Not long after that, I receive text messages & MSN chats from
all over the world, fake again!(:
from band members saying that my dearest section made it through.
So, we are IN; N7 Cluster.
(: Flabbergasted upon hearing the news cause from what I was told,
the news will only be informed anytime but not today.
So yeah. I was overjoyed.
Jia you all Teams! (:
MIDNIGHT, I'm tired.
Good Night, Good Night.
difficult situation. reaally.
Monday, August 25, 2008
I'm jealous, so what?
I'm jealous that you're attached to me, so what?
I'm jealous you gave him a better relationship, so what?
I don't know what's up with me.
I'm just too paranoid?
Ah, I hate tomorrow.
Don't wish to elaborate.
SEEEEEEESH.
Internet sms-ing with Arif after
loooooooooooooooooong MIA-ing (:
I kinda miss you too, arif? haha.
goodnight lovely.
You use to call me your dreamer.
Sunday, August 24, 2008
I miss you; MileyCyrus
Sha la la la la la
sha la la la la la
You use to call me your angel,
said I was sent straight down from heaven.
You'd hold me close in your arms,
I love the way you felt so strong.
I never wanted you to leave,
I wanted you to say here holding me.
I miss you,
I miss your smile.
And I still shed a tear every once a while,
and even though it's different now
you're still here some how.
My heart won't let you go
And I need you to know,
I miss you, sha la la la la,
I miss you.
A sad sad song,
really meaningful lyrics &
very sincere. :'(
Boy, all the best for N Level.
Work hard & do well yeah? :)
Hope it's all paid off, my waiting.
I'm alright, I am. Am I?
I'm suppose to be out there
with my section members.
Mum didn't allow. Great.
I couldn't say much already.
I couldn't be bothered.
I don't care about anything already.
I'm washing my hands off every single thing.
I hope I won't; but there's this feeling asking me
to. I'm not a strong girl. My surroundings are
taking over me. Double Trouble. :'(
I had my ups.
Now, it's the downs.
Isn't it obvious & true enough?
So, now is a good start.
After my EOY, I shall start working.
Then, I wouldn't have time to think about it.
Let's try hard, for my sake :(
Honestly, I don't know what's wrong with me.
I would just blurt out what I feel. I don't care about
the consequences I will face, I don't care about what's
gonna happen after I publish this entry.
I'm turning fifteen in a week time.
But it seems like I'm just 5 years old.
Why? I'm treated like such.
What's my wish for this 15Th Birthday?
; the way I want to live my life.
Seriously :(
Labels: my wish.
Photographs
Saturday, August 23, 2008
I guess, that's all.
Most of it are combined & edited.
So, yeeah (:
Yesterday's; out with Nadiah
I'm sorry, friend.
Chocolates yes.
But where are my coca-cola!?
Guess what, my mother is practicing the
' no.coke' thingy here at home ever since
people have been saying that coke contains
too much sugar & it is too gassy.
It is true yet it's killing me!
I'm forbidded to drink coke here at home.
We used to have bottles of coke & Pepsi
but now, it's all fruit juice & milk.
YUCK PEOPLE, YUCK! grrr.
Fridge sucks now.
Not only coca-cola,
bubble tea too!
Okay mom, what's the problem here?
" oh, it's too cold & it's bad for you "
=________________________________=
Next Saturday, 1 Year 5Th Months waiting.
Following day, I turn 15Th.
I'm looking forward for all that (:
Oh I just hope I'm forgiven. :(
what am i to you?
Friday, August 22, 2008
When you're in love with someone,
you know you always want their attention & etc.
I'm very sure that that person you love is the only
person you think of most of the times, in fact,
all the time.
As for me, Hotfudge have always occupied my
mind & even made me worried even though he is all fine.
Even now, as I'm blogging, I'm glancing to my cell phone
hoping to receive a text message from " ARIF! <3>
Well, if that happens, it shows that miracle do come true.
But surprisingly today, I was all gloomy & worried for
someone else. Some special to me, but less special.
Definitely someone who make my day, all the time.
Definitely someone who cheers me up even when I got
upset over the most littlest things. :(
I miss Arif, yes.
But, I miss Muhd Nabil Yuza more :(
Confiscating his cell phone & not onlining is sad.
I'm sure he learnt his lesson. Oh please, no handcuffs
over such matters. I don't know, just hope for the best.
Didn't have a proper goodbye from
him just now as I have to dash out of school like
as soon as possible. Got my bag from him & went off.
Haiz.
Thanks Nadiah!
For the Pizza Hut treat! (:
For the lovely day today! (:
Photos, coming right up eh?
Ah, I feel empty.
Empty? Why?
The awesome people are not with me.
I hate their absence. I need their presence.
I need them :(
What else could cheer me up?
Chocolates & coke.
I need both. But now, there's only chocolates.
:'(
Should be celebrating my 15Th Birthday with
my dearest section but can't make it.
cool or what? =_____= thanks mommy, ily.
On the other side,
I've passed all my subject for Common Test.
Even Social Studies; 12/20.
Not that good, but WHOAA darling.
Seriously, even those who got 10/20 was
overjoyed. I love seeing my classmates
putting on their awesome smiles (:
Bacyen Bin Tengik! :(
still feel the pain
Thursday, August 21, 2008
So, I was the caused of your long term harsh fought with
your good friends. I'm sorry.
On the 13th of April 2008.
You told the girls that you're okay that I'm tagging along.
But what happened when I appear?
You didn't even look at me.
You even told your guy friends;
" I don't know irah is coming "
" I don't like. I don't like her being here"
You said that out loud; " let her listen ahh "
You actually said that?
It was the past, I know.
But it's hurting to know this.
It's hurting me so much to know that I'm the caused.
You told me I'm not at fault but the actual fact is,
I'm the jinx. Thanks alot.
Something to note,
if you don't want me to tag along, just say.
Or you thought you would hurt me by saying no to the girls.
Well, you hurt me even more for doing that.
I don't mind you being direct,
it's so much better just that way.
shiets.
:'(
in case you're wondering,
13th April was that day that we went out
for a movie & where it all began.
Definitely maybe, we watched.
So, that toilet is haunted.
The school hall is haunted.
I've been there all alone like so many time.
Now, it creeps me.
Nothing to blog for today.
Samba dance, get my nerves here & there.
All tired, but hey, there's always Nabil to cheer me up.
Especially the way he shake his hips & butt.
Like omg.that.is.the.funniest.move.I've.ever.seen.in.my.life.
kind of feeling you know? haha
Hell, I've got nothing else to say.
But oh, I can get jealous at times when I
see them together and stuff.
I shouldn't but, I am. ARGH.
Sucha an idiot Irah.
Goodbye lovers.
Labels: a sensitive one., jealous, why? imma girl
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
And love, I've been crying cause things ain't how they use to be.
He say, the battle almost won.
& I cannot remember what life was like through photographs.
But I cannot forget, and refuse to regret
So glad I met you and take my breath away,
make everyday worth all the pain that I've gone through.
My love for you is deep & meaningless
& yes, I miss you like crazy.
Oh, whatever; you will say.
Samba dance was great.
Despite the pissed off I had, I enjoyed it.
Left home around 8.40am this morning.
Met Fee under my block and headed to school, slowly.
Bought some light breakfast & reached school
around 9.05am. Still early seh! haha.
Thank god eh!
I passed all subjects.
SS & Chemistry have yet to receive.
Let's pray hard! (:
School's all fine.
Nothing much happening.
9 more days to Mummy's birthday!
10 more days to 1year 5months! [ 516days]
11 more days to 15Th! (:
12 more days to Fasting month,
Like coooooooooooooool kan? NOT.
Fish Ball Crackers taste heaven.
nothing to update.
let's go and bang wall.
bye
furggtard
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
I was humiliated though it's only between two of you.
I don't know why. I shouldn't be but I was, I am.
Ah, whatever moron.
Performance was all fine & awesome!
It was a very fruitful experience to only half 7 of us
on stage & we played a fast song which we are 60% confident
of. So, great work dearest Clarinetist!
Let's strive hard for the competition! (:
Yes I was very very very extremely nervous &
yes, everyone said it was obvious. " can see "
But hey, I was definitely putting a brave front just now.
& I think we all did great. (: Yayness.
After school, slacked with Nabil & then headed to the
hall to watch them practice samba. But somehow later,
I was pulled into the dance group & heck, I'm performing
too! Ahs. But I got Nabil keep bumping his butt to mine
while dancing, I enjoyed every moment eh! (:
After the dancing, slacked with the girls before heading back
to class & then to the field to watch the soccer match, 3NA vs 3NT.
NT won, surprisingly & I went home alone. Thanks eh Nabil.
Hah.
Ah, nothing much to update.
All I know, Mr Isham is gonna scream his heads off before
my heads fly off after screaming at me. okay what the hell?
Geddit? no? yes? ah who cares.
okay, go.
I'm tired.
scared, serious
Monday, August 18, 2008
How do you feel, when you just had your serious practice
today & performed for the band twice today.
Your conductor came to you & told you that you & your section
will be performing for tomorrow's Assembly Programme?
Shocked, scared, nervous, unbelievable etc etc.
Not yet practice! not yet mastered! tmr, die.
haha! But nah, I think we will do fine tomorrow.
JIAYOU CLARINETIST! <3
Beeeeeeeeeeeeeest eh Nabil eh nabil eh nabil eh?
HAHA (: sygggg nabil many many! (:
okay, off to kick ass for tomorrow's performance &
MIGHT not be doing art. gahs.
(:
today & performed for the band twice today.
Your conductor came to you & told you that you & your section
will be performing for tomorrow's Assembly Programme?
Shocked, scared, nervous, unbelievable etc etc.
Not yet practice! not yet mastered! tmr, die.
haha! But nah, I think we will do fine tomorrow.
JIAYOU CLARINETIST! <3
Beeeeeeeeeeeeeest eh Nabil eh nabil eh nabil eh?
HAHA (: sygggg nabil many many! (:
okay, off to kick ass for tomorrow's performance &
MIGHT not be doing art. gahs.
(:
cutomer service, I'll work for you.
Sunday, August 17, 2008
Arif called just to check if I do sound like a small kid
like I told him. HAHA. It's funny & shocking.
I know I know, I do sound like small kid.
I tried my best to deepen my voice when he called
but I failed. Hip hip BOOrayy.
Happy or what?
Nadiah is taking me out real soon to treat me as she's
getting her pay. NOT. She just want to ask me out.
I just told my mother that I might be working
with Nadiah this holiday to earn some cash for myself.
I didn't said no, so, I guess she's fine with it?
I wanna earn good money okay.
At least, I'm doing some good yeah? (:
Happy Happy.
School Uniform & school shoe is still dirty.
Shall get busy with it now (:
So, that's it for this short entry.
Nothing much to update eh.
Happy schooling people!
ATTENTION ATTENTION!
3N2ER'S.
PLEASE BRING YOUR CHEMISTRY BOOKS.
JUST TO PLEASE THAT FAGGOT.
no offence, we all hate you, but we love your teaching.
Saturday, August 16, 2008
Silas came online & saw my Display picture. Yeah, that.
He called me emo.
& he too said this
" I can be emo, you can be minah. I'm talking to a minah now "
How bitchy can this Silas be eh? haha (:
I miss him like so much!
I was informed that there's sectionals today.
So, headed for sectionals even though I'm busy at home.
Met my lovely members & practice hard with them today.
Reached late around an hour late, so, at 10am.
Packed up around 12.40pm & headed to Causeway Point
with Caroline, Si yuan & Dewi (:
Had lunch with them at KFC.
Had a long lunch with them and walked
around searching for Dewi's dress.
I tried a 129 bugs bunny dress & heck, I look
better in a 20 bucks dress. Serious (: hahah!
Bought myself a headband & I dislike it so much.
Never mind. And and, treated myself bubble tea after
craving it for a day (: Yessah. Raining, chilled at Civic
for awhile & headed home around 4 with them.
& hotfudgy-mudgy, I didn't broke my leg.
haha, don't exaggerate ehh. Only cramps lah.
Nabil is out & he promised he will text his sweetest girl.
But, he didn't. Janji melayu. Yeah lah, people sure forget
me when they are having fun or whatever. :(
Aku nie kan sapeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
I was thinking to work to earn myself a living.
Aing, nah, I just wanna work to have
some money for myself. As I walked around Metro,
there are so many things I wanna get! Just! from Metro.
Levi's jeans, Kappa shirts & nice designs school
shoes! I really hope mummy will allow me.
I wanna go for another haircut real soon.
Prolly just trimming since my hair is getting
out of shape so fast & it's getting thicker by minute.
Real soon, I've got my bangs done! yeah.
I'm so getting a Sheckler.
I really want that shoe! :'(
I'm turning 15 soon btw people! haha
Friday, August 15, 2008
Physics done, I'm done!
Common Test was being sucha bitch this week.
Now, it's finally over. All I need to worry is my results.
English, thankfully, I've passed.
The most worry is my Geog & Physics.
SS? haha, sure fail. No worries.
Today after school, I went over to Wak's place & met
Nadiah there. Bus-ed to Causeway Point and bought us
each a packet of delicious Nasi Lemak & a chocolate bubble tea.
Walked around & headed over to my place & chillax.
Wanted to go Vista around 6pm but mommy didn't allow,
so, we slacked in my room where Nad gave me a hair cut.
Nah, more of a fringe cut. Had my bangs, again & again.
Thanks Nadiah! Don't charge me lah okay? haha.
Okay, she left me around 6.50pm where my brother
came home soon before long (: Like finally eh?
Honestly, I have a fear.
I'm scared to make orders through the phone.
My brother got home & asked me to order Mac Donald's
& I can ensure you that I can cry if he keep on asking me
to just dial. I can & I will. haha.
I can't ave my birthday BBQ thanks to my mother.
I've planned all the food, the place, the cool people to invite.
AND ALL, I've planned. But she said no. :'( HOW CRUEL.
While my sister didn't ask for any party, she's busying
preparing one for her now. :'( CANNOT LIKE THIS LAH.
I told you, life is unfair.
seriously, I wanna cry already.
Not fair, not fair, not fair.
I would rather celebrate my 15Th birthday waking up late
& not showering till the next day rather than having a party
at home with families. Like for once, I want to have it with
my friends. :'(
Never mind, I don't wish to have any 15Th Birthday.
I will never get anything I want. serious.
Mummy, bias.
you got my sister her presents last year & this year
when she is already earning her own money.
While me, last year, before my birthday, you told me
you ordered me something but till now, i received nothing.
It's almost a year reaching to my 15Th since my 14Th.
How could you.
Bias, for god sake. seriously.
he loves me, he loves me not
Thursday, August 14, 2008
500Th Day. <33
I recalled feeling as low as ground the previous time.
I recalled tearing waaay to many times for
whaat, four days?.
I recalled almost giving up on the 495Th day.
I recalled feeling scared, thinking he might let go,
since I said I was prepared with all my heart,
which is totally not true.
I thought I couldn't wait more than 495 days but hey,
I did & I'm sure I can wait longer. I can & I will.
Seriously, I don't mind tolerating & being patient.
Like I've said, it's all worth it, cause it's You. <3
Thanks to all the encouragements, dearest friends.
Thanks to all the listening ear be it on the phone or
MSN or in person. Thank you very much.
Geography, made me wanna cry so badly.
Mathematics, please don't question me any further.
So you roughly know how badly I've done today aye?
Good.
After school,
waited waited & waited for Nad's text message.
Chillax with Nabil lovely, Afee and more.
I had lot of fun! (:
Didn't turn up for band practice due to Common Test.
I'm sorry, but I really do need to revise more.
Met Nad, waited for her from 1.45 till 3.45pm.
Whoa, I know. Went over to her Wak's
place & did revision.
Wak prepared me sucha scrumptious lunch & my tummy
was filled to brim. Yes, to the brim! (:
Left the place around 6.30pm.
Headed to Vista & bought some stuff.
Bid goodbyes & walked home from there.
Ah, tomorrow is my last paper & yes, I'm gonna
work my ass off tonight for Physics. DREAM ON.
I suck in Physics like so bad, I don't even know a single
thing when the practice paper came to me.
Cool or what people?
No eye bags, yes Dark rings.
Awful awful awful awful, just awful.
* Fugly appearance + dark rings= fabulous. NOT.
Dad cooked a lot for dinner.
Like whoa, tempting!
But heck, no rice after eight?
HiakHiak. -_____-
I wanna have hotfudge with you, Arif.
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
I'm ever ready, for sure.
NOT.
What was I thinking? Rubik's cube since second last period
till I reached home at 7pm? I'm totally a kick ass man. Not.
Mother Tongue paper was alright I must say.
The Peribahasa was the easiest since we had a last minute
revision before recess. Who says last minute revision
isn't effective? It is alright!
Then Chemistry, I gave my best.
I tried recalling all equations, definitions & apply
into whatever I have to just now. I'm proud to say,
there's no need for me to bang my head on the wall.
After school, met Nadiah at Causeway Point.
Followed her to photo stat some notes & headed down
to buy Nasi Lemak at Cold Storage.
Very Nice okay? Muuuuuuust buy! (:
Bought bubble Tea & headed to level 6.
Had lunch & headed to Library where I met
Intan, Finna,Muhaimin & Wei Han? yeeah.
Bumped into Seth, like again & again & again.
Around 5pm, Angkong, Dani & Haziq came.
Not soon before long, Naddy & I left after Intan left.
And Muhaimin, don't call me kakak Irah okay?
You know, my Rubik's cube sure is full or bacteria.
Countless people have touched & played with it. (:
Maaaaan, you can feel the satisfaction when you can solve
even one side of the cube okay! haha.
Mugging for me is good.
Shall do that especially for Physics paper tomorrow.
Haiz, Physics is one of the subjects I truly love.
Why? Simple Maths. Not complicated ones like E maths.
But, I flunked oh so badly after Mid year.
How I wish I was a good as I was during beginning of the year.
3rd & 6Th position in class? I don't think I'm able to attain
that again. Seriously.
But I am working hard ya know (:
So anyways, left Library & treat myself Chocolate Sundae.
Walked to the BBQ pit & slacked with Nadiah.
Chatted & stuff. Headed home almost 7pm.
Tired. Fatigued. But still, MUST STUDY!
Okay, Alyssha Kunci? (: hahas.
My AAYYGGGG.
Nabil did the sexiest thing ever to me in class.
NOTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT. haha.
Nah, you don't know what was going on.
Aiselehe ciz Keju eh Nabil?